Random Thoughts

I'm back....

A lot has changed since I've last posted but I will let those parts that have become known through my writing instead of explicitly listing them here.

First thought I had was how quickly we blame external factors for our shortcomings. On the Dr. Phil show an overweight woman in her late 30s was outraged that she had been scammed for a $100,000 by a man claiming to be an ex-football player for the Dallas Cowboys. She met him in Vegas (God bless my city) and proceeded to "give up" her virginity to him.

Now there were warning signs all over the place through her own admission. She found out the guy wasn't really a football player, he would not talk about his past at all, did not want to let her meet his family , etc. Did she take the lessons learned from this and decide to be more attentive all the while recognizing she had been duped?

Nope.

Instead, she made it her mission to warn others of men like this and expose these frauds. If she would assume responsibility for what happened (even if it is due to her naivety, I mean a female virgin in her late 30s...LOL!) and then decided to help others by educating them she probably would have grown as a person and become more savvy. Instead she stunts any growth or wisdom she could have extracted from this and blames it on external factors.

What a shame. We all do this, myself included, and it really impedes our progress in the domains which we may want to advance in. The problem you can't interact socially isn't that someone was suuuuuuuuuuuper mean to you in high school and really hurt your confidence even though you are now in your late 20s. The problem is that you let someone decide your self-worth and instead of recognizing it for what it was you decided to shift the blame outward so as not to hurt yourself.

Sometimes pain can be helpful in the sense it can indicate areas that you may need to explore.

Second thought: Cockteases suck.

Third thought: Why the hell can maintaining your determination to see something through be hard at times? I am familiar with the schools of thought on this and have applied them and have seen improvement. However, I still seem to get stuck in ruts at times and find it hard to get started again. For instance, I could be working out really religiously and loving it and see great results then sort of just peter off.

Another example is I can feel myself becoming that person I've always wanted to be. Assuming that mindset and walking that walk of the person I want to be, then all of a sudden feel like an outstretched elastic band snapping back into place.

Weird.

Thoughts?